Our Location:
Cabo San Lucas
Baja, Mexico
I would like to start off by giving our good friends Lorne and Sue an apology. I'm truly sorry I was so rude and sharp in my reply to your text. There is no excuse, please accept my most sincere apology. Thank you for your kind words.
Riley and I are enjoying the people of Mexico a great deal. Very warm and friendly, always ready to include us, help us and just are amazing people.
I would like to just mention a few things, birthday wishes to Isabel, Barry, Jason, Sheila and Amber. Condolences to Amanda, Brian and families on the passing of their grandmother, Sandra. Condolences to Nancy and family on the passing of Grant. Condolences to the family of Joanne Smith, a true community spirit. Condolences to Nancy and Stephen and their families on the passing of their mother Eileen.
The snow and rain continue to fall on our little rock in the middle of Lake Huron. The ground is very much ice covered and the January thaw is upon them. The snow falls and gets beaten down by the rain that falls next. A vicious circle. Sun is rare there, how I wish I could send them some, they definitely need it.
The days are monotonous here and while we love the people, we would not come back here to Cabo, but we will be returning to Mexico next winter, or that is the plan at this point. Plans are forever changing as family ages and life gets in the way, it is just a fact.
The next paragraph is not for everyone, although you are welcome to read it. Sometimes I just have to let the words flow, I can't keep them bottled up. Often times I write them and delete them many times over, they haven't come out in the right order or they aren't quite the right ones, but often times, like below, they just flow out of my fingertips almost faster than my fingers can type. Sometimes I write and then just delete them permanently today was not one of those days. As I said, please do not feel you need to read or comment on the next grouping of words, in fact no comments are necessary at all. It is just how I feel at this time, in this space, in this upheaval around us.
Death makes us reflect and internalize, it makes us believers and non believers. Death makes us feel things we aren't sure we accept or understand. It leaves a residue, a film of some kind over our thoughts. It dregs up memories we have forgotten and leaves us feeling cheated. The residue eventually slips away until the next death, and cycle begins again. Dual deaths in the family in recent weeks have me in this mood. I'm not looking for sympathy nor kind words, I'm not seeking comfort nor compassion. I am merely explaining why this post is so disjointed. Life has a way of getting in the way but death stops it instantly, it invades and overcomes, seeping into every crevice of our being until life once again begins to chug along. We rejoice at the birth of new life, it too makes things change but death, the natural ending to life seems to upset the balance in a very different way. It is a new lesson every time it comes to call.
I am a fan of music, many different genres. I have been listening to some of my favourite artists although I will admit I've been very Canadian leaning these last few weeks for many reasons. I will also admit I have always been/am a huge Boss fan, Bruce Springsteen in case you don't know who the Boss is. He is one of the most talented songwriters of our times, in my opinion. He has a talent of making us see the haunting vision in his narratives and yet gives the rush of hope, attainable goals and the possibility of a true kind of love. However he has not been on my playlist for a few weeks, no fault of his, just my ear is tuned to something else right now. I have always been a big fan of Gordon Lightfoot, I've been to many concerts at Toronto's Massey Hall to see him live. Truly a privilege to have been able to do so. He once joked that if something bad happens the world knows Gordon Lightfoot will write a song about it, and so he has written many. Mr. Lightfoot left us May 1, 2023. Like the Wreck of the Edmond Fitzgerald, his legend lives on. This song is about a lost love, it has so many levels, it can be peeled like an onion. So another famous Canadian singer/songwriter for you to listen to if you like. It is called, If you could read my mind. Enjoy.
It appears Google is demanding I allow cookies and I will not, so no pics folks. I'm tired of the effort and demands of blogger and Google to have access to my information. Yes it's a rant and I am totally p*ssed off.
Thanks for visiting.
Deb
ReplyDeletegood to see a post from you. Nice that you enjoy Mexico even if the place your in is not your cup of tea. Here is something I read, " Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, Love leaves a memory no one can steal" . I think that might have come from Al of the Bayfield Bunch. Take care, Vern
Thank you Vern. The quote is so true. I do hope you are surviving easily and well up there in Boise. I have been trying to find a way to box some heat to ship north to dad, if I find one I will ship some your way. Thanks again Vern.
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Thanks. Came on an anniversary of two deaths of people very close to me. Your words were helpful as it feels like someone else is going thru the same thing. Had an old friend I lost touch with pass away before Christmas and it has me feeling regretful that I burned that bridge and wasn't a better friend. Life lessons sure are hard! Even harder when you're far away. I know. Praying for you and yours. Love & peace to you.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I'm always amazed that my words can help people. I am sorry for your losses. Past old friends are often for me at least, an undefinable loss, they are in category that isn't quite defined, not family, not quite modern day friends but shared memory friends. Past friends. The loss is still real but in a definable way. Life lessons make us stronger, smarter and more determined. Thank you.
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No explanation needed on your death paragraph, I feel the same way. I mention the death of my friends, not for the condolences, but to memorialize them. To remember them. Sometimes I too write things because I just need to, not for the reader, but for me. I cannot relax or move on until I see them in print. Thanks for the post, we often wonder about you guys!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jim. I find the writing is healing in many ways, but I don't share it often, least people think there is something a little off about me (and no my eyes didn't cross. lol). I often wonder about you and Barb as well. Your niece crosses my mind often for many reasons, I hope all is going well for her. Thanks again.
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Some things need to come out and it helps to write it. Not easy losing two family members close together and you are in another country.
ReplyDeleteAppreciate you putting up a post and we know you and Riley are still enjoying the sun.
Sue
Hello Sue. Thank you very much. I'm not sure we are ever prepared even when we know it's coming. The sad reality is there is nothing we can do, here or there, it is just the reality. Sometimes harder to take then other times. Thank you Sue.
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So good to hear from you two. You will find that 'comfort' place, both in where you spend your Winters and how you deal with death and losses.
ReplyDelete'Regret' is not a good place to be so rather than regretting that you were not a better friend to someone, remember the memories when you were closer.
Hello to both you and Riley! Enjoy your remaining time with the friendly locals.
Thanks Patsy. My only regret was being sharp and rude in a text with Lorne. It was unintentional and as you can read below, they completely understood. It was all about timing. As to making peace with death back home and being away, it is something I've dealt with almost every year we have been travelling. Sadly it is a fact of life and it sometimes, I will admit, knocks me down for a while. Recovery is part of life, we all have our methods of what gets us thru the day. As to finding our Mexico winter home, ah yes, we did not come here thinking this would be the place, we came to see if this was the right country, to immerse ourselves in the culture and to just enjoy the new adventure. We would have been shocked if we got it right the first time. We did get some things right though, we love Mexico, the people, the food, the energy. I'm glad we came to Mexico, Australia was a close second. A few other places were on the list and I did some research, they all were of interest but Mexico was our first choice. It was a good one. Thanks again Patsy.
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I am so very sorry that you are having a difficult time. Hopefully the writing of your thoughts has eased the pain bit. Life is short and should be lived each day at the fullest - none of us know what tomorrow will bring. So many places to explore in Mexico. Feel free to check out some of your thoughts with me. Hugs to you both for now.
ReplyDeleteThank you Contessa. We are doing better, shock, even expected shock can be a bit overwhelming. We are enjoying the wonderful people, they are warm and welcoming. I hope you and Colin and the girls are well.
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oops, signed Contessa
ReplyDeleteNov. 4, 92, Dec. 23, 92 and Oct. 9, 97 help me to totally understand what you mean.
ReplyDeleteStay Safe and If you could read my mind, you would know what I mean.
It's about time. Enjoy Mexico!
Thank you Rick. Gordon Lightfoot was such a modern day storyteller. He offered us amazing stories and glimpses into ourselves and others. He helped us to understand some of the complexities of human nature. Other times he just sang a song.
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Apology accepted but totally unwarranted. You were not rude at all but rather conveyed to me that you were not emotionally ready to share your every day life with the world. Grief is a personal thing and you have to deal with it yourself and sometimes that means the rest of the world has to be put on hold for a while. Your text made me bow my head and say a little prayer for you and your family in your time of need. Hope you can soon get back to viewing the world through your rose coloured glasses!! Hugs!!
ReplyDeleteWell I am still sorry, thank you for understanding and the prayer. I promise the next post will be a more normal, rose coloured glasses kind of sappy post. Lol. We have discovered the secret of life in Cabo San Lucas. It is therapeutic and something I've been missing. That is for the sappy next post. hugs. Thank you for understanding Lorne. I appreciate it very much.
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